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About Me Member Shadow Deviant lordazazel23/Male/Unknown Recent Activity Deviant for 6 Years
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Hello Again

Sat Mar 22, 2008, 11:04 AM
I've been away for so long. I'm at war now (literaly) so it will probably be awhile until I return for good. Still I haven't forgotten where my I laid my creativity to rest and I will be back for it.

  • Listening to: 30 Seconds to Mars
  • Eating: Otis Spunkmeyer Chocolate Muffin
  • Drinking: Monster (the green)

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  • Current Residence: i have no home
  • Interests: revolutions of being and altered states
  • Favourite movie: life, cause i can't change the channel
  • Favourite band or musician: TOOL, sublime, deftones, nin, hatebreed,apc
  • Favourite genre of music: its all just so much noise
  • Favourite photographer: ME
  • Operating System: Misery and the expression there of.
  • MP3 player of choice: 80G video IPOD, I Lived before it but I don't know if I can live without it.
  • Shell of choice: apathy and indifference
  • Wallpaper of choice: If your free you'll never see the walls
  • Skin of choice: your looks like it will fit perfectly
  • Favourite game: dungeons and dragons 3rd ed.
  • Personal Quote: it's easy to judge without knowing; not so easy to know without judging
  • Tools of the Trade: drugs, suspect emotions, and a mechanical pencil

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:icondollsin:
Thank you very much for the add :)
:iconbabyjmeblue:
Thanks For The Add!

<3 J*me

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"I Dont Care...Because I Care Way Too Much..."
:iconpatrick-j-reynolds:
uh...

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-i don't think it will ever die-
:iconlordazazel:
if you take into account that i drive all night long every night and the only things to do are; listen to music, smoke and think, then i believe the transistion will be easier.


All of the books i read now talk about transending and projecting, of freeing your sub-conscious and deconstructing the ego. Mostly the Ego. It seems that your ego is this horrible barrier you've constructed out of thoughts, feelings, and experienses. This barrier prevents you from opening up truely to life and stiffles you, disallowing growth. They say that what i need to do is pick this barrier apart; over-rationalizing my missplaced need for this security blanket, and allow my self to be OPEN to divine influence.


If you were at your house one fine day and happend to hear that there were vast roving bands of heavily armed soldiers that don't necessarily have your best intrests at heart coming to knock on your door, and they can't get in unless you OPEN the door, would you let them in?


EVERYONE IS A TOOL.

YOU ARE HERE RIGHT NOW ONLY BECAUSE IT PLEASES SOMEONE ELSE. THIS IS TRUE FOR EVERYONE. WHOS' BEST INTREST DO THESE PEOPLE HAVE IN MIND WHEN YOU GOBBLE UP THEIR POISEN?
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Well my friend I read all that. It was fun I guess but then again this whole ‘ego thing’ is kind of a nifty device. You see I have changed the concept behind this or changed direction into which I see the word itself. The Ego is your mask or tool in which you fool the little cogs into following you.

As an example Jesus knew he wasn’t the son of god. His family raised him as a prophet so he went out looking for the means to create his destiny and became a kria healer. When he fasted for 40 days his entire reality complex fell to shit. Whatever was realized was enough. It was what was needed to control everything he did and everyone he encountered. The mask Jesus created/used, the ego he aligned with was one that used words and physically portrayed to the masses that he was worth listening to. The young minds and hearts of the slaves [90% of any advanced civilization with any sort of intelligent leaders has a huge slave population of some sort] flocked like mass idiots and embraced his ideas of love and compassion and understanding. The people who killed him did so because a lot of people wanted to get out of slavery. Lots of people didn’t like Rome kicking their ass. No one likes America kicking their ass. So here it comes. A messiah comes out of anywhere but the ruling people of the world and tries to talk them into being a little less pissed off and a little more content about being a slave. The smart and greedy violent pigs of society are quick to love him and run with him in order to kill never getting the big picture: Caste Systems are the only real system. You start in one caste, live, die, reincarnate into a new caste. Your position isn’t permanent. Wanting change does nothing. You awaken as a specific tool. To do anything but your purpose is unnatural. Work as you were made, try to escape out of the tool and be a soul. JUST a soul.

That’s a lot of crap I know. Don’t destroy any part of yourself. You created it for a reason, wield it. Refine it into something useful, something cute the populace will bend easily to. Simply separate yourself from it, ruling over it as the soul sitting within an aetheral throne within this vehicle the body. Your advisors [you as king] are your mental opinions and stands, your urges in any direction however dominant or subliminal. You are none of them. You are the ultimate chooser between everything coming in.

Tell me when you travel astral. Tell me of your lucid dreaming.

Your path of no resistance serves me so well here. You met me in my room. You felt the static around me right? That lack of smooth flow. That doesn’t make us uncomfortable but it does the SHEEP. Destroy anyone’s feeling of uncomfort around you. Make it so they bathe in your presence at all times. Make it so they cannot possibly feel anything but a deep seeded need to do what you say. Their subconscious will make them behave [I believe] out of fear because it sees past your ego. Most people don’t see past it tho.

Those that do are martial artists [learn that] yogis who practice stretches, mantras, meditations, whirling, silence, stillness, art and breathing. Try them all. Find what is easiest to focus upon. When I say focus I mean what can you do [and it can be anything] that takes ALL of your focus so that there is only that one thing?

I understand the survival instinct to keep some bit of yourself watching out for something else. I understand this very well. You need a place that is safe. I think first of APC’s The Rose – undisturbed and guarded.

This is the use of retreats, monasteries and the like.

Do not destroy, simply separate from everything you are not. You are [probably] nothing you can really comprehend or perceive. Which… is…

Duh.
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HAPPY CHRISTMAS AND MERRY NEW YEAR :holly:

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"There is something in each of us that wants us to be Unhappy. It creates in our imaginations problems that don't yet exist- quite often causing them to come true."
~Benjamin Hoff The Te of Piglet
:iconhereticschizoid:
mech. pencils rock my socks ;-) awesome work great feeling
:icondeloulark:
Thanks for the :+fav: on 'Blue Twist' :)
:iconnotrust:
Thanks for adding me to your devwatch;)


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"There is something in each of us that wants us to be Unhappy. It creates in our imaginations problems that don't yet exist- quite often causing them to come true."
~Benjamin Hoff The Te of Piglet

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