

Saphire SpinBecome unencumbered and you will see betrayal of actions things shown are never me reduced to waring factions splintered mind yearns for a reborn whole. I've waited so long paid the price and sold my soul yet you never seem to find me fading pictures in my mind. harsh words spoken until our ties together lay smoldering and broken. Medication for imagined ills release and escape euphoria in tiny pills. locked into this saphire spin another moment lost to a new death-head grin. Deafened by the thunderous silence there isSaphire Spin


ResurfaceResist multiply Ascend destroy warmth now no cold hate, pain no emptiness i so fear. Just ease, comfort,Resurface
the projenators of joy. So what if its at your exspence. If its my only solace in a world full of emptiness, hollow hearts and forgotten souls. I have fallen ever short of grace> haunting kalidescope dreamscape numbed nightmare an endless escape. my systems are not myown I have risen above and moved beyond. The genisis of ascenction and still it pulls and binds cold uncertainty have your words already taken root? &


Pain Canalretribution you creatures scream suffer the strangle holdPain Canal
of my god machine sure you have thoughts now soon i'll make everything clean see your face made anew smooth metallic sheen razors edge of the shattered falling tears wash the memory of apast pain from your eyes drinking deep of our fears
my soul swells with your cries so confused did it to yourself until i could use you too fearful children I AM the wolf in the silence between your dreams
i am the voice with which you scream over your peaceful pastures


RiverchristJesus saves his hate for you. Salvation burns your damned flesh through. Happiness is giving the devil his due. Existance a sinRiverchrist
that cannot be ignored, no matter how you live everyone dies by the sword. Perception a justification
for all atrocities borne.
After all your lamenting god gives only his scorn.
<3 J*me
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"I Dont Care...Because I Care Way Too Much..."
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-i don't think it will ever die-
All of the books i read now talk about transending and projecting, of freeing your sub-conscious and deconstructing the ego. Mostly the Ego. It seems that your ego is this horrible barrier you've constructed out of thoughts, feelings, and experienses. This barrier prevents you from opening up truely to life and stiffles you, disallowing growth. They say that what i need to do is pick this barrier apart; over-rationalizing my missplaced need for this security blanket, and allow my self to be OPEN to divine influence.
If you were at your house one fine day and happend to hear that there were vast roving bands of heavily armed soldiers that don't necessarily have your best intrests at heart coming to knock on your door, and they can't get in unless you OPEN the door, would you let them in?
EVERYONE IS A TOOL.
YOU ARE HERE RIGHT NOW ONLY BECAUSE IT PLEASES SOMEONE ELSE. THIS IS TRUE FOR EVERYONE. WHOS' BEST INTREST DO THESE PEOPLE HAVE IN MIND WHEN YOU GOBBLE UP THEIR POISEN?
As an example Jesus knew he wasn’t the son of god. His family raised him as a prophet so he went out looking for the means to create his destiny and became a kria healer. When he fasted for 40 days his entire reality complex fell to shit. Whatever was realized was enough. It was what was needed to control everything he did and everyone he encountered. The mask Jesus created/used, the ego he aligned with was one that used words and physically portrayed to the masses that he was worth listening to. The young minds and hearts of the slaves [90% of any advanced civilization with any sort of intelligent leaders has a huge slave population of some sort] flocked like mass idiots and embraced his ideas of love and compassion and understanding. The people who killed him did so because a lot of people wanted to get out of slavery. Lots of people didn’t like Rome kicking their ass. No one likes America kicking their ass. So here it comes. A messiah comes out of anywhere but the ruling people of the world and tries to talk them into being a little less pissed off and a little more content about being a slave. The smart and greedy violent pigs of society are quick to love him and run with him in order to kill never getting the big picture: Caste Systems are the only real system. You start in one caste, live, die, reincarnate into a new caste. Your position isn’t permanent. Wanting change does nothing. You awaken as a specific tool. To do anything but your purpose is unnatural. Work as you were made, try to escape out of the tool and be a soul. JUST a soul.
That’s a lot of crap I know. Don’t destroy any part of yourself. You created it for a reason, wield it. Refine it into something useful, something cute the populace will bend easily to. Simply separate yourself from it, ruling over it as the soul sitting within an aetheral throne within this vehicle the body. Your advisors [you as king] are your mental opinions and stands, your urges in any direction however dominant or subliminal. You are none of them. You are the ultimate chooser between everything coming in.
Tell me when you travel astral. Tell me of your lucid dreaming.
Your path of no resistance serves me so well here. You met me in my room. You felt the static around me right? That lack of smooth flow. That doesn’t make us uncomfortable but it does the SHEEP. Destroy anyone’s feeling of uncomfort around you. Make it so they bathe in your presence at all times. Make it so they cannot possibly feel anything but a deep seeded need to do what you say. Their subconscious will make them behave [I believe] out of fear because it sees past your ego. Most people don’t see past it tho.
Those that do are martial artists [learn that] yogis who practice stretches, mantras, meditations, whirling, silence, stillness, art and breathing. Try them all. Find what is easiest to focus upon. When I say focus I mean what can you do [and it can be anything] that takes ALL of your focus so that there is only that one thing?
I understand the survival instinct to keep some bit of yourself watching out for something else. I understand this very well. You need a place that is safe. I think first of APC’s The Rose – undisturbed and guarded.
This is the use of retreats, monasteries and the like.
Do not destroy, simply separate from everything you are not. You are [probably] nothing you can really comprehend or perceive. Which… is…
Duh.
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"There is something in each of us that wants us to be Unhappy. It creates in our imaginations problems that don't yet exist- quite often causing them to come true."
~Benjamin Hoff The Te of Piglet
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The more people I meet the more I like my dog
notrust
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"There is something in each of us that wants us to be Unhappy. It creates in our imaginations problems that don't yet exist- quite often causing them to come true."
~Benjamin Hoff The Te of Piglet
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